I bet everyone in my age has ever experienced 'one-side love' as I call it. No matter with whom you've fallen in love: with a boy from a football team who 'may be a little too boy-band-meets-athlete perfect' (quote from my fav book 'Girl Online' by Zoella) or with literally a guy from a boyband who can't be more perfect..who doesn't know you...yeah, i feel you... And if you're a hopeless romantic as I am, then keep reading because this post is for you as you could see in the title.
Love is a flippin amazing thing...maybe. Don't take my words seriously here because I've never been in a love relationship hmm...anyway! Although, I caaan say that I've been infatuated with a few guys. And every time I went through the same things. Here's a little Top-8 list of things me doing every time whenever I get the feeling that seems to be something-close-to-love-but-it-might-be-not:
1) Save as many pictures of a guy I like as possible;
2) Put them on wallpaper on all my gadgets;
3) If it's a singer, download all the songs including demo versions and all possible covers, etc.;
4) Listen to them 24/7;
5) Imagine cute life situations with them;
6) However that would never happen in real life;
7) Remember point #6 and be sad;
8) Repeat
I mean, yeah, now even to me it appears to be REALLY cheesy but i can't deal with that when I'm in love with someone. Sometimes I get a feeling of being so obsessed with a certain person that it pretty much becomes a main point of my life. Sounds like an absolute absurd , doesn't it?
Well, being in love also means appearing thoughts like:
1) Oh well he would never look at me because I don't look like a girl a guy would date with;
2) Okay I'm too weird for him;
3) Besides, he would never be able to handle my love to Taylor Swift;
4) Finally, if he knew how my laughter sounds like he would escape in 2 sec.
Therefore, everything leads to a depression.
Recently I've gone through this stuff once again and realised that I can't go on this way. I should take over my own life than just dreaming of having someone by my side. I've been carrying the idea in my crazy mind for a few days so that what I came to:
- If you worry about having someone with you in a relationship very much and you feel self-conscious about yourself because no one fancies you then stop for a minute and think. You don't have to change yourself for the sake of being liked by your crush. Relationships always build around absolute honesty and if someone doesn't like you the way you are then apparently that's not the one you're meant to be with.
- Be interesting. And that doesn't mean to be super extraordinary as I thought, but to be interested in something. There's nothing more amazing than to look at a person who really enjoys doing what they love. That's totally alluring. So try things, practise, do researches and HAVE FUN:)
- Never blame yourself if someone treats you bad or doesn't like you. I mean, make sure you didn't make real harm to them but if you didn't do anything wrong then leave them.
- “Sometimes the hero of the fairy tale isn't a handsome prince. Sometimes it's you.” ('Girl Online On Tour' by Zoella)
If you found here something you've ever experienced please let me know x
All the love xx
